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I hate the winter. With nothing good going on in my life, still 3 months till I can expect to even make enough in a month to pay my rent. Old age is closing in and I've got nothing to show for a lifetime of work with very little by way of pleasurable times and nothing I care to remember, because they'll all come with stories of loss. I drank too much last night, trying to raise a little enthusiasm for life even for a few hours and slept very poorly as a result. When the morning came around I set the alarm back for a couple of hours, listening to rain thumping down on the metal roof of the factory I also call home. I eventually got up, the rabbits want their goodies in the morning and it's not fair I deprive them. Now with my coffee and heater on, I'll waste the day away watching chipmunk videos and reruns of a silly nineties TV series. Sea Quest. Amazing how positive an outlook it had on the very future we're in now. Still it struck me how woke it all was even then. The innocence and trust in establishment it portrays is so gone today.

It gets me every day I survive and watch so many others not doing so, why I even bother? Just pride? With nothing else to show, am I just wanting to walk on the graves of all the fools who bought into the bullshit and played the game? I can't come up with anything else anymore. There's self loathing setting in. I am where I am due to my own fault. My own cynicism left me here. There's got to be someplace else I should be. I'm losing my religion.

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yungjung's avatar

I love you man but sometimes i think you just need some putang. Doomerism in moderation not excess .

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