Born in Belfast in 1950, Brian Keenan sought to escape the civil unrest of his homeland by diving straight into Lebanon’s civil war, for he had a job offer from the glamorous and exotic sounding American University of Beirut. That’s as cool as listing Timbuktu Community College on your resume, no?
Plus, at age 35 Keenan had yet to see the world beyond Northern Ireland, so it was past time he roamed. Just four months into this new life, Keenan was kidnapped and held hostage for the next 4 1/2 years, however.
Interviewed in 2018, Keenan said his initial strategy for coping with this trauma was to “diminish” what was happening, “and I would say to myself, ‘They'll only keep me for a week, most, and then I'll get outta here […] It'll be great for dinner parties. What a story I will have to tell!’”
We need stories to tell, then, for without stories, we’re as good as dead. Plus, stories redeem, at least partially, even our worst misfortunes, so that those whose lives have been nothing but monotonous shifts, numbing television, repetitive music, online diatribes and chronic masturbation must feel envy. Why haven’t I been shot at at least once? Craft beers or designer ice creams don’t quite cut it.
In his 1991 book, An Evil Cradling, Keenan got to tell his story most memorably. Even before landing in Beirut, Keenan had entered a new universe, for Heathrow was exotic enough. Waiting to board, this working-class Irishman was surrounded by Indians, Pakistanis and Africans. Having pushed himself from all that was familiar, Keenan was finally free.
In country, Keenan found himself at a decrepit airport “stiff” with armed men, “Each of them had a gun and they watched our amoeba-like movement, encumbered with luggage, the way predatory birds might watch the last living movements of their intended prey.”
Very atmospheric, this experience, and it certainly beat The Troubles as glimpsed from a college campus. If you’re stuck in some Annandale or Redwood City cul-de-sac, the allure must be that much greater. In town, Keenan was ensconced at the Mayflower Hotel in the chic and intellectual Hamra neighborhood, just two blocks from the university. Getting comfortable, Keenan then moved to a “Turkish villa” with a serene garden that often attracted “a blizzard of butterflies.” Spotting a corpse or burning building on his stroll to work only added to his excitement.
Though “suddenly” is routinely overused in talking or writing, real catastrophes are often sudden, as in having something so traumatic suddenly happens to you that can’t be reversed. One second, you’re fine. The next, you’re no longer in charge of anything. Keenan:
I went out through the gate, locking it behind me, and began to walk off in the direction of the University. I had taken, I suppose, no more than twelve steps. I was barely away from the gate and the fence which enclosed the garden when an old Mercedes, hand-painted dark green with a cream roof, pulled up alongside me. The driver’s door opened, preventing me from passing on the narrow street.
Out jumped four men, the driver with a hand pistol and three other young men in their mid-twenties, each with a Kalashnikov in his hand and a hand gun in his belt. I stood and we exchanged silent glances. How long this took I do not know. But I remembered looking at them, them looking at me. Then I was quickly pushed into the back seat with two of the Kalashnikov-toting gunmen.
The doors slammed and the car moved off quickly. I remember smiling to myself, looking at these men. The driver was watching me in the mirror, and his friend on the passenger seat turned full face towards me, half smiling. The two men in the back seat beside me were silent, grim and I think somewhat fearful. The car gathered speed and I was ordered down on the floor. I could not, would not go down on the floor amongst their feet. I simply bowed my head, resting it on one of the men’s knees. This seemed to cause much confusion. The driver was angry, he wanted me on the floor. His friend in the passenger seat was smiling and laughing. The guard on whose knee I rested my head seemed perplexed.
For us in July of 2022, two key themes should resonate: the sudden disappearance of normality and a defiant refusal to accept this new normal, as in no way was Keenan going down “on the floor amongst their feet.”
In prison literature, there is a dichotomy routinely depicted, that of abject compliance, to the point of turning and ratting on your fellow inmates, or stubbornly maintaining your much assailed dignity at all costs. Though Keenan survived his integrity, or pride, if you will, he could easily have been killed. Keenan on one beating:
Again I felt that searing tension flash through me, waiting for the blows to come, not seeing them or where they would land. I hissed quietly to myself “Get it over,” echoing the words I had heard Frank cry out days before. Said began by taking deep breaths, deeper and deeper, faster and faster he breathed in and out. He was working himself up. I sat and listened to him exciting himself into violence. Down it came, hard, on my shoulders, driving into my chest. Then along my thighs, banging against my knees, Said’s excited breathing becoming louder. Every part of my body was being insulted. I could feel the heat of this man beside me. I could smell the perfume that he always wore, mixed with his sweat. This man was the violent lover and his abuse of my body a kind of rape. I felt the closeness of him and knew he was sexually excited by what he was doing. The blows rained down and I felt only anger; to be raped by a man so filled with fear revolted me. A man fascinated by violence and obsessed with sex. In that moment I hated him, I did not fear him. I made no noise as each blow landed and was driven into me. My resistance was a joyful thing. Said became more passionate, more vicious, always seeking out the tender parts and banging the butt of his rifle onto my flesh. He worked himself into exhaustion and finally, as a last humiliation, he pressed the butt of the gun tight onto my neck, pushing down hard till I felt the air being choked out of me. How long would he keep this up, and how long before I would burst out screaming for air? But it was his final insult.
Much of the West has not had an existential crisis in decades. No aerial bombardments, being herded into concentration camps, dying of starvation, enduring a psychotic dictator or escaping one’s homeland on an unseaworthy boat, etc. Politics for them has been no more grave than voting, haranguing one’s “enemies” online or protesting for an hour, often in a cute costume or even naked, then it’s time for cappuccino or mojito.
To hide their gulag or killing field envy, many have become stridently militant, but only image wise, so they can post cool pics on FaceBook, Twitter or Instagram. Nothing is risked. Others slake this deficit with video games or Hollywood movies, where carnage as spectacle has become a staple.
Suddenly, though, many realize they’ve been shoved into a strange, hostile vehicle and taken for a ride to an unknown location, with their faces pressed to the floor. Most still insist it’s not that absurd, much less horrifying, with normality returning in any case, and even if it isn’t, the new normality isn’t much of an inconvenience.
Still more curious, many who expect the worst can’t wait for it to happen, such is their ennui and self-hatred, for anything is better than their meaningless life.
Seventeen years after his release, Keenan returned to Beirut. “I couldn’t say I was happy and excited to be back—it was far more than that. I was falling in love," and understandably so. It was where Keenan had found the most meaning.
Unlike Keenan, we may not have a chance to tell our own stories, no matter how badly.
Hi Linh, I don't recall Brian Keenan's kidnapping but remember having just moved to London when Terry Waite was captured and held hostage a few years after Brian Keenan. He was released 4 years later which seemed like half a lifetime. How much longer then will the nearly 20 years seem to those still held in Guantanamo?
I suppose the two shouldn't be compared as one case involves taking a foreigner hostage for financial or political gain, whereas the other usually involved taking a local citizen prisoner for defending his homeland. No ransom, no political gain there - in fact quite the opposite. But done nonetheless.
Whilst Keenan, Waite and other similar hostages have remarkable stories to tell, they're lucky to be alive to tell them. I'd be just as fascinated to read the stories of those from Guantanamo to see how they compare. I doubt they'll even make it to translation into English though, far less past the west's publishers.
Still resisting. It's the humiliation I won't tolerate. They can kill me but not make me bow down. I couldn't care less to tell my story. Nobody cares. Only Allah cares and He doesn't need me to tell it.
Hi, Linh. Italy experienced something similar in the late 1970s with far-left terrorism, then with the Mafia's attack on judges and policemen in Sicily. The fact that Italy is the country of theater and comedy, the country of Sergio Leone and western-spaghetti films, took away much of the tragic nature of the situation. Then, there was the Communist Party, which watched over Italian democracy: another Italian paradox. It's all much darker, blacker, sadder... today: no hope, and everyone extolling the government of a reptilian.
Hello Linh, Great piece! More than a touch of Stockholm syndrome in most of the Western World, defiance or even questioning what's parroted on the tv seems to be an anathema to most nowadays; you can't impress some people of the grave situation that has unfolded even infront of their own eyes the, denial is unabated and mostly impenetrable.
It is supremely challenging to have faith or remain hopeful for the future; people are deceived by the thin skin of an apparent "Civilised Society" and not prepared in the smallest way for the pace that it could descend into a horror story in the blink of an eye.
Made me think of the ordeal that Mohammed Rafea, famous Syrian TV actor with Palestinian refugee parents, went through after the IS caught of him in 2012. He didn't make it to tell the story though, and the IS published pictures of his badly maimed body on the Internet for the example. I'd had some of the craziest all-night parties with him just months before in Bab Touma, the Christian district downtown Damascus, that got mortared later also. I was glad I'd GTFO before, by intuition, but what he went through must have been pure horror. May he RIP.
Seriously. The Duke of Wellington over the fake fireplace of a hotel in Beirut. Will wonders never cease. I share my life with a refugee from Belfast around the same age as Keenan who boarded a ship for Australia with five mates all age 19 .who had been repeatedly warned they would be eligible to be drafted into the Australian army within months of arrival and could very well be sent to Vietnam. The draft was done by drawing balls with birthdates, a certain number from each month. My partner sat and watched while the day before and the day after his birthday was drawn. None of the five were drafted, dodging a bullet or two indeed. None of their lives would make good books. Kismet. Thanks for your writing.
I remember right around the time Keenan was captured some of the same group kidnapped some Russians, then suddenly some of those local Arabs were being disappeared, then dropped off in the same urban areas naked, beaten, mutilated, and quite dead with a signature that said “the RUSSIANS did it!” After that things were different.
Great writing. I am torn as to what I wish for Americans. I don't enjoy seeing anyone suffer. However, Americans have been too shielded from the havoc they have generated around the globe. Even now, if Americans can still grill and remodel their kitchens, they don't really care what happens in the Donbass, Yemen or Syria with their tax dollars.
The biggest threat to America is losing its status as the reserve currency. Goodbye to money printer. Hello massive inflation. That is going to take a few more decades to fully happen although it has already started and has speeded up with the Russian sanctions.
Anyone going to Beirut after the Marine Barracks bombing in 1983 and then the murder of American University President Malcolm Kerr (father of Golden State coach Steve Kerr) in 1984 had to be.
Great writing, as usual. Accurate description of the banality of most American lives.....I guess mine included. Your essays do bring a bit of cheer though.
Hi Linh, I don't recall Brian Keenan's kidnapping but remember having just moved to London when Terry Waite was captured and held hostage a few years after Brian Keenan. He was released 4 years later which seemed like half a lifetime. How much longer then will the nearly 20 years seem to those still held in Guantanamo?
I suppose the two shouldn't be compared as one case involves taking a foreigner hostage for financial or political gain, whereas the other usually involved taking a local citizen prisoner for defending his homeland. No ransom, no political gain there - in fact quite the opposite. But done nonetheless.
Whilst Keenan, Waite and other similar hostages have remarkable stories to tell, they're lucky to be alive to tell them. I'd be just as fascinated to read the stories of those from Guantanamo to see how they compare. I doubt they'll even make it to translation into English though, far less past the west's publishers.
Still resisting. It's the humiliation I won't tolerate. They can kill me but not make me bow down. I couldn't care less to tell my story. Nobody cares. Only Allah cares and He doesn't need me to tell it.
Hi, Linh. Italy experienced something similar in the late 1970s with far-left terrorism, then with the Mafia's attack on judges and policemen in Sicily. The fact that Italy is the country of theater and comedy, the country of Sergio Leone and western-spaghetti films, took away much of the tragic nature of the situation. Then, there was the Communist Party, which watched over Italian democracy: another Italian paradox. It's all much darker, blacker, sadder... today: no hope, and everyone extolling the government of a reptilian.
Hello Linh, Great piece! More than a touch of Stockholm syndrome in most of the Western World, defiance or even questioning what's parroted on the tv seems to be an anathema to most nowadays; you can't impress some people of the grave situation that has unfolded even infront of their own eyes the, denial is unabated and mostly impenetrable.
It is supremely challenging to have faith or remain hopeful for the future; people are deceived by the thin skin of an apparent "Civilised Society" and not prepared in the smallest way for the pace that it could descend into a horror story in the blink of an eye.
Great piece as always, thanks Linh!
Made me think of the ordeal that Mohammed Rafea, famous Syrian TV actor with Palestinian refugee parents, went through after the IS caught of him in 2012. He didn't make it to tell the story though, and the IS published pictures of his badly maimed body on the Internet for the example. I'd had some of the craziest all-night parties with him just months before in Bab Touma, the Christian district downtown Damascus, that got mortared later also. I was glad I'd GTFO before, by intuition, but what he went through must have been pure horror. May he RIP.
Seriously. The Duke of Wellington over the fake fireplace of a hotel in Beirut. Will wonders never cease. I share my life with a refugee from Belfast around the same age as Keenan who boarded a ship for Australia with five mates all age 19 .who had been repeatedly warned they would be eligible to be drafted into the Australian army within months of arrival and could very well be sent to Vietnam. The draft was done by drawing balls with birthdates, a certain number from each month. My partner sat and watched while the day before and the day after his birthday was drawn. None of the five were drafted, dodging a bullet or two indeed. None of their lives would make good books. Kismet. Thanks for your writing.
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I remember right around the time Keenan was captured some of the same group kidnapped some Russians, then suddenly some of those local Arabs were being disappeared, then dropped off in the same urban areas naked, beaten, mutilated, and quite dead with a signature that said “the RUSSIANS did it!” After that things were different.
Great writing. I am torn as to what I wish for Americans. I don't enjoy seeing anyone suffer. However, Americans have been too shielded from the havoc they have generated around the globe. Even now, if Americans can still grill and remodel their kitchens, they don't really care what happens in the Donbass, Yemen or Syria with their tax dollars.
The biggest threat to America is losing its status as the reserve currency. Goodbye to money printer. Hello massive inflation. That is going to take a few more decades to fully happen although it has already started and has speeded up with the Russian sanctions.
Linh
Brian Keenan must've been a moron.
Anyone going to Beirut after the Marine Barracks bombing in 1983 and then the murder of American University President Malcolm Kerr (father of Golden State coach Steve Kerr) in 1984 had to be.
Bill
Great writing, as usual. Accurate description of the banality of most American lives.....I guess mine included. Your essays do bring a bit of cheer though.
Thanks, Linh.
Perceptive and insightful.
Excellent read. Thank you.